Independence has become something that I strive for on a daily basis, and by that I don't just mean financially but also emotionally, physically, and mentally. My past has been a factor in molding me in this way, for when I was younger, even two or three years ago, I was finding myself depending on the current boyfriend or the current closest friend. I would sometimes make changes to my life-plans to somewhat parallel theirs. I wanted so desperately to not be abandoned or left behind, so I would change my standards.
Moving out of my parent's house at a younger age than many traditional straight-out-of-high-school-to college kids, I started to learn what I was capable of on my own. God started teaching me pretty intense life changing lessons during the early years of my time first living on my own. And with those lessons, gave me confidence in myself as an individual and as a self-sufficient young woman. Then I started to become proud of who I was growing into, which is, to me, one of the most freeing experiences life has to offer. It's so liberating knowing that I can depend on just myself and the Lord and be confident in the fact that there is no one else that I have emotional/relational ties to. Yeah, it might get me down every so often, but I always get back up!
Being single is not an unfortunate state to be in as a young woman in her mid-twenties. It is a blessing! And although I don't have someone to to text all the time and I don't have someone to constantly have my back, I have me! I have Jesus. I have a life that is all mine and no one else's. I get to do things, like pick up an move to a different city! (hint, wink) and not have to worry about kids or a boyfriend or husband.
That has been sitting in my drafts for months, and thought it was time to share a little on my thoughts on random life experiences.